Tuesday, July 22, 2008




These are the days when you dream and dream and dream about opportunities stretching before you, the paths sprawling every which way, offering a chance to escape complications better left behind. Imagine all of the places that you could possibly travel, all the different ways you can recreate yourself.



What holds you back?

What keeps you from going on one side, and what tugs you back from the other?

When you leave, you never just leave behind a tattered couch and strangled curtains.
You never step away only from the too-tall heels, shoved in a corner to be discovered another time.
It's never just the park you loitered at when your horizon matched the skies gathering rain in their pockets, never just the street you dreamed about living on, or the parking spot you treasured coming home to late at night.

It's the eyes, the hair, the lips, the arms, legs, feet, toes, fingers, even knees
of someone.
It's the laugh, the sigh that exhales a world's weight, cracked knuckles in a silence and a cascade of curls transferred from shoulder to shoulder, both browned from the summer sun.
It's the arms that have wrapped around your body, your waist, anchoring you after a fall, after regret has been born.




Departure tips this soul masked as tissue, blood, veins, precariously toward the edge, wrenching what has touched it to the core from contact.

Replanted to a foreign bed, slowly becoming native soil.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

PrettyPretty


Me and Ash went home this weekend, Duke came with us...he is the best travel kitty ever.




Ok! So here's my pretty pretty pretty and amazing and beautiful and light and fast and coolest bicycle:

I've fallen two or three times, trying to track stand, so now I've got bruises up and down my legs...looks really great.




Monday, July 14, 2008

Un-Decision

I wish there was a literary way to express a deep, deep sigh. That's what I'm doing right now. Partly a sigh of relief, my internship is FINISHED! No more stressful angry upset pressured people at I have to spend all day with.

The other part of my sigh is an "Oh no I don't really want to have anything to do with Communications and that's my major," sigh.

As in, I'm thinking about changing my major.
As in, I should have gone to Nepal and skipped this silly school business.
As in, maybe I could drop the major, add Sociology as a major instead, and add an Art Photography minor!
Is it too late for that?
No, it is not too late for that.

Other than that, I'm good. I got to go home this weekend, which was WONDERFUL. And then I came back to a brand new bicycle! A pretty green fixie that's at least 500 lbs less than my Varsity weighed. A 2008 Pake model. It's amazing. I've fallen off it twice now and I have bruises up and down my right leg, but I love it and am determined to figure track-standing out, and then skidding. Ethan is my favorite, ever, I cannot believe he got it for me. He decided my other bike, the Varsity, was falling apart too much and wouldn't really be a good bike to ride south on again, and our next century ride is next weekend. So now I'll be safe and fast and have the best bike!

Pictures of my new amazing bicycle tonight!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Sunday

A glass vase!





Saturday, July 5, 2008

Ugh. I feel sick right now.